Sunday, March 30, 2014

Barabbas? A Picture of Me?

Today our pastor was preaching in John 18, and he told a story that hit me in the heart.  He pointed out that many times we are sad that there was no one we can aspire to that stood up beside Jesus.  That many times we try and relate to the different people around.  I have thought about that so many times, whom would I have been like? Would I have denied Christ like Peter? Would I have run? Would I have followed weeping like some of the women? Then he started a story:
                  Just imagine that you are a Roman prisoner.  You have been for weeks, you have been beaten, and you are hungry.  Then a Roman executioner comes to the door of your cell opens it, and you know your day has come.  But instead he says, “Get up Barabbas, you are free.” What?! He says it again.  You stumble out, not sure what is going on.  There is a mob outside in a riot.  Your still not sure, so you push to the front.  There is a man carrying your cross.  The one with your name on it, the one that you were supposed to die on today, it had your name on it.  But you are free.
                  It hit me instantly. Who am I in this story? Where do I relate? Barabbas.  I was meant for that punishment, but He carried the cross that was meant for me, with my name on it. 

                  Thank you Father for taking my place.  Thank you for being Truth.  Thank you for Grace.  I am absolutely overwhelmed with the hideousness of my sin, and amazing beauty of Your Grace. No matter how many times I can read, hear, or tell this story it will never cease to throw me on my face in humble worship.  Thank you for always helping me in deepening my understanding. 

Thursday, January 17, 2013

My Girl

I am incredibly blessed. This girl has brought so much joy to our lives. She is a sweet, precious gift.

I'm going to try and start blogging again.



Friday, August 31, 2012

Because I taught them to...


About a month ago I was in a conversation with my parents and some other people talking about the two grandkids being far away.  The person in the conversation said that her son could not move because his wife would not leave her mother.  There were a lot of jokes that were being said, and the question was asked, “Well why aren’t these girls the same as that?”  Everyone laughed but my mom said quietly, “Because I taught them to follow their husbands.”  I don’t think anyone but me heard it, I don’t think she meant for anyone to hear.  But I did, and I sat there in quiet thankfulness to the Lord for the Mother that I have been given. 
It’s true my mother has taught me many things.  Some of which are very hard for her, and me.  Above all she wants me to honor the Lord, even if that means she might have a hard time.  She has taught me to follow the Lord wherever He leads, even if that means going to live in a land that is not “safe” and is very far.  Or if that means taking her grandchildren as well.  She has taught me to follow my husband, in so many more ways than just in physical location.  I have watched her be a godly, submissive, wise, strong woman. 
For a while now I have been thinking about the things my mom has taught me.  She has molded my life more than she knows, in every aspect of my life.  I pray that I can be the kind of mother that the Lord has given me, that I can have half of the godly impact and example in Mercy’s life as I have been blessed to have. 
The past few weeks I have shared many different stories and ways my mom has taught me throughout my life.  I could write for days.  I have heard her say countless times, that one of her favorite verses is 3 John 4, “I have no greater joy than this, to hear of my children walking in truth.” This blog does not communicate the thankfulness that I have for her.  She is a well of wisdom.  I am overwhelmed with thankfulness of all of the things in my life that are “because she taught me to…”

I love you Mama!!  Thank you for being the woman that excels them all.  

Saturday, July 21, 2012

Mercy Rea Wilhite


Mercy Rea Wilhite
“Friend of Mercy”

Dispensing compassion upon observing a lowly physical state compels the compassion of God to be magnified. Mercy, in the simplistic and broadest meaning, is the bestowing of some form of compassion or kindness due to the physical condition of the party. The name “Mercy” serves an Ebenezer for a specific time in our relationship. How many of us can honestly peer into our past and point to specific moments and, with great confidence, say, “God was working there.” Predominantly found in the OT, memorial stones (i.e, an Ebenezer) were set up to remind the future generation of God’s deliverance, acts of providence, etc. They predominantly served as a teaching reminder to the people. “Mercy” is our Ebenezer.

When compared to other people, circumstances, and forms of suffering, individualized heartache can seem to be minimized. All accounts or experiences of trials are so packaged and uniquely given to His people, they seem to be sovereignly designed for the recipient and no one else. Though we have family, friends, and acquaintances undergoing far greater pain and incomparable circumstances, the Lord designed to bestow His mercy and faithfulness to us in a unique way.

There was a time, though not very far back, where the darkness of tribulations was unceasing. As the end of the month approached, I would incessantly look at the downcast and disheartened portrait of my wife. With overt joy and longings, my wife, with a healthy yearning, desired a child. Simultaneous to these monthly encounters, a steady barrage of irreconcilable events, comments, and relationships seemed to castigate my soul.

However, through these times, we had the unequivocal resolve to search and find joy in God. I was greatly reminded and sustained by two main passages during this period of our marriage. The first was the passage that was read at our wedding, Habakkuk 3.17–19. Near the end our engagement and throughout our marriage thus far, Allyson and I have sought to place the great depths of this passage before our gaze.
Though the fig tree should not blossom, nor fruit be on the vines, the produce of the olive fail and the fields yield no food, the flock be cut off from the fold and there be no herd in the stalls, yet I will rejoice in the Lord; I will take joy in the God of my salvation. God, the Lord, is my strength; he makes my feet like the deer’s; he makes me tread on my high places.
Our joy consists of God and having God as our own and having YHWH serve as our redeemer, not our condition.

A second passage that brought sustenance during this stint was Jude 17–25. And in my humble opinion, this is one of the richest doxologies in the New Testament.
But you must remember, beloved, the predictions of the apostles of our Lord Jesus Christ. They said to you, “in the last time there will be scoffers, following their own ungodly passions.” It is these who cause divisions, worldly people, devoid of the Spirit. But you, beloved, building yourselves up in your most holy faith and praying in the Holy Spirit, keep yourselves in the love of God, waiting for the mercy of our Lord Jesus Christ that leads to eternal life. And have mercy on those who doubt; save others by snatching them out of the fire; to others show mercy with fear, hating even the garment stained by flesh.
Now to him who is able to keep you from stumbling and to present you blameless before the presence of his glory with great joy, to the only God, our Savior, through Jesus Christ our Lord, be glory, majesty, dominion, and authority, before all time and now and forever. Amen.
There are multiple calls to resolve, to building your faith, to abide in the love of God, to extend mercy to others, to await the return of our Lord, but it is all to Him who is able to assure steadfast footing, it is all to Him that reassures our blameless appearing before him, and all this is done for the display of His glory and will provide Him great joy.

The timing of our pregnancy was bar none, a providential event due to the external timing of other, unrelated, surrounding affairs. The temporary darkness was beginning to wane upon the horizon of forthcoming changes. But standing here now, as we peer into the rearview mirror of providential history, it is nothing more than timely.

When Allyson and I were sitting in the hospital room, awaiting an ultra-sound to find out the gender, we were thrilled, nervous, and scared. The moment the doctor told us we were having a girl, I had been muddling over Jude 17–25 in my mind and had decided to re-read this sustaining passage. My eyes hit “Mercy” in v.21 and they filled up with tears. That was it, I thought, “Mercy” is it. Not only are we still awaiting the return of God’s mercy (i.e., Christ’s return), but also in looking upon our heartache, he has finally acted in our favor and in our condition by providing Mercy to us.

Her middle name, Rea, is taken from the Hebrew phonetic spelling of “Friend.” And it is now like an old time friend, we have been reacquainted with the compassion and kindness of God. And therefore we have chosen to name our little girl, whether she is carried to full-term or not, Mercy Rea; for, she has been our memorial in our re-familiarity with Mercy.

Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Faithfulness: Jeremiah or Jonah?

The past many months have been, what’s the word, hard. Maybe heavy. There have been a lot of things going on in our lives, and the Lord is teaching me so much. Situations have been hard, and people have been extremely hard. I have been thinking a lot about Jeremiah and Jonah, and my faithfulness. Jonah was disobedient, and unwillingly. Not only did he not want to go, the Lord had to send a fish to swallow him and send him to share and all of Nineveh was saved. Jeremiah was extremely faithful for 40 years, and no one listened to him. He is known as the weeping prophet. A lot of time people look at success in faithfulness from what comes out of your ministry like Jonah. I would say that Jeremiah was the more faithful, even though he did not have the people to show like Jonah did.


Anyway, I have been thinking a lot about my faithfulness over the last year. There have been a few people, who I absolutely love, that have made it clear to me that I am not faithful, and they do not respect me or even think well of me. They said specific things that if are true I wouldn’t like me either. To say this broke my heart would be a big understatement. I have been struggling through what they said, and what part is truth and what you just can’t see. Some of faithfulness you will never be able to see in another person.

I have realized that I have not been as faithful as I wanted, and want to be. This breaks my heart even more. Because as much as I am a people person and love relationships and want to have good ones. I want to be faithful to the Lord more than anything in my life. No I am not the person that some people think I am, and have told me I am, but I need to grow. I want to bring the Lord glory in every breath of my life. I have struggled through many things these past few months.

Yet, the Lord encourages my heart through His Word. A few weeks ago I was reading Psalm 119, which I love, and a verse punched me in the face. Vs. 116 “Sustain me according to Your Word, that I may live; And do not let me be ashamed of my hope.” First of all the absolute only way I am Sustained is through His Word. He definitely sustains me with His Word. Second, my hope is Him. That, I am not ashamed of. My hope is not that people will see me as whatever I want them to see me, or that I would be good at what I do. Or whatever it may be. My hope is Christ, and I can’t help but remember “that He who began a good work in me will perfect in the day of Christ Jesus.” Thank You Lord that I cannot pull myself up, but that You will perfect the work You started in me. And, that You are faithful, even when I am faithless. That, I can never be ashamed of.

Thursday, November 03, 2011

Whale Watching!

I also had the chance to go whale watching last month.  It was amazing!!!  We saw at least 7 or 8 blue whales.  Yes, those are the biggest animal on earth.  They were huge.  It was such a great experience.  You should definitely go.  I went with San Diego Whale Watching.




I do have to say, it is an interesting feeling riding out to sea, and knowing the water is 400ft deep under me right now.  Nothing for as far as I can see, and seeing and knowing the power of the ocean.  That the Lord says, "Here shall your proud waves stop." and He has walked the recesses of the deep.  We serve an awesome God.  Humbling and exciting day.  You should do it sometime.  

USC Game!!!






We got to go last month.  It was amazing, I loved it!!!!!